Wiken ini bener benerrrrr.. deh.. turun ke denpasar selalu ngalamin yg namanya panas menyengat, kringetan, gerah, brasa pgn mandi mulu.. hehehe.. maklum, kebiasaan dingin di "gunung", jadinya agak ngaget juga klo nemu barang panas gitu padahal perasaan udah lama deh idup disini, dan lumayan sering juga turun buat jalan2.. apa anyk aja yg lagi manja kali yey.. hmm.. ga papa laahh.. skali2
Eits, jumat kemaren sih yang ga kepanasan, soalnya emang turunnya after office hours.. hehehe.. pigi2 dadakan gitu malah lebih enak dey.. cmn pengen jalan aja - stuck ma kerjaan yg lagi high. Dapet deh mamam di pizza ama nongkrong di Center Stage (HardRock), ampe jam 1an baru balik ke "gunung".. It's been a nice night.. ( ps. makaci usek2nya ya, nyet.. bikin nyaman ama bikin nyandu )
Klo panas2 Sabtu kemaren sih menghasilkan 3 kaset dvd live concert baru ama nonton Last Samurai.. it's been a century ago kali maennya, gw baru smpt ntn kemaren Kali ini lagi tumben aja hunting kaset yang ga pelem2 gitu, lagi pengen hunt live concert. Benernya bakal lebih kalap tuh kemaren, soalnya banyak bgt yg dipengenin ada disono.. hehehe.. cmn i have a good control mechanism.. deuuu.. lagian kapan juga liatnya klo langsung banyak gitu Anyik dapet Woodstock '99, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, ama Alice In Chain Unplugged. Lumayannnn.. edisi minggu depan bakal rada alternative dikit2 deh.. Ntar minggu depannya lagi gw cari John Mayer ma Craig David buat balancenya.. Ato should i look for Campursari? Rock Bali? Inul on stage? Hihihi.. Liat ajaa..

ps: hi, daylight.. udah diliat oleh2 Woodstocknya? Like it?

time is a healer, and i've done my time.. let's face another day !!

ps: nyet, thanks for being with me through my hard day.. i know u've been through ur hard day too, but let's face them together

Kadang cape juga harus pake topeng senyum.. Cmn ini yang "sementara" bisa gw lakukan.. hmm.. benernya ada sisi bagusnya jg gw pke topeng ini, encourage me to face my next day.. Skalian belajar pasrah, tenang, nyari waktu lebih banyak buat mikirin apa yg benernya gw pengenin slama ini.. Ini gw dapet dari blognya fanya ( gw ndiri yg bikin nick baru buat dia lebih ngimut kayak orangnya thanks a bunch, hun.. )

Smile though your heart is aching,
smile even though it's breaking,
when there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by
if you smile through your fear and sorrow,
smile and maybe tomorrow
you'll see the sun comes shining through, for you.
Light up your face with gladness,
hide ev'ry trace of sadnes,
although a tear maybe ever so near.
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile! What's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worth while
if you just smile!
"Smile - Charlie Chaplin"

Anyway, pagi ini gw musti nyetir balik ke Bali, sejak sabtu kemaren pulang Sby.. Kali aja perjalanan bisa bikin ati enakan.. Moga2 ga dibawa ngelamun aja.. Let's get prepared

please..

dunno wat tu du..
capek..
bingung..
pengen nangis..
butuh diusek2..
butuh dipeluk..

i've tried hard.. buat i guess it would never be enough for you, i'.. i'm just ordinary me.. sorry

kadang, aku berfikir, dapatkah kita terus coba..
mendayung perahu kita - menyatukan ingin kita..
sedang selalu saja khilaf yang kecil mengusik, bagai angin berhembus kencang goyahkan kaki kita..
genggam tanganku, jgn bimbang..
tak usahlah lagi dikenang..
naif diri yg pernah datang, jadikan pelajaran sayang..
dengar bisikanku oh dinda - coba lapangkan dada kita..
trima aku apa adanya..
jujur hati yang kita jaga.

mengapa selalu saja khilaf yang kecil mengusik, bagai ombak yg besar goyahkan kaki kita..
genggam tanganku, jgn bimbang..
tak usahlah lagi dikenang..
naif diri yg pernah datang, jadikan pelajaran sayang..
dengar bisikanku oh dinda - coba lapangkan dada kita..
trima aku apa adanya..
jujur hati yang kita jaga.

bila gundahmu tak menghilang, hentikan dulu dayung kita..
bila kau ingin lupakan aku, ku tak tau apalah daya..

The Rain - Dengar Bisikku

let's pretend that everything never happened..

Happy Galungan!!
seharian ini anyik abisin ama maraton dvd dikosan. it's great to work in Bali, since Bali has many holiday for various ceremony.. hehehe.. hmm.. ada brp dvd yah.. SWAT, Alex&Emma, Two Weeks Notice, Kill Bill, The Guru, I Capture The Castle, dan dua kali U2 - Elevation Tour, Boston 2001. Review cerita2nya besok aja ah.. masiy ngantuk.. pegel juga niy.. udah pindah2 posisi bbrapa kali.. mulai dari duduk tegak, duduk manis, ampe nyungsep di dalem bedcover

i dreamt 'bout you..

I miss you in the morning,
When all the world is new,
I know the day can bring no joy,
Because it brings not you.

I miss the well-loved voice of you,
Your tender smile for me,
The charm of you,
The joy of your unfailing sympathy,
Because the world is full of folks; it's true,
But there was only one of you.

I miss you in the noontide,
The crowded city street,
Seems like a desert now,
I walk in solitude complete.

I miss your hands beside my own,
The light touch of your hand,
The quick gleam in the eye of you,
So sure to understand.

I miss you in the evening,
When daylight fades away,
I miss the sheltering arms of you,
To rest me for the day,
I try to think I see you yet,
There in the firelight gleams,
Weary at last; I sleep,
And I still miss you in my dreams.

hope u'll accompany me through this day - jgn lupa plus usek2nyaaaa.. mana manaaaa..

ngerti gaaaakkk ?? ini lucu loh

Mat Pithi masiyo wong kampung tapi hobbyne gak kalah karo ABG metropolis sing seneng clubbing. Tapi ono hobbyne sing paling favourite yaiku nyelem ndik laut. Sawijining dino pas Mat Pithi wayahe asyik nyelem menikmati keindahan
terumbu karang ndik jeruhan 8 meter, dadakno ono wong ndik pinggire - Mat Pithi kaget soale wong mau ora nggawe peralatan selam.

Mat Pithi terus nyelem tambah jeruh nang 15 meter. Awake kaget mane. Wong mau kok terus meluh ae. Mat Pitihi cepet cepet nyelem nang jeruhan 25 meter .... eh dadakno wong mau isik ngetutno.

Mat Pithi heran. Terus deke nulis ndik white board cilik sing digowo kanggo nyelem: "Wah hebat koen....yo opo carane koen isok nyelem gak nggawe peralatan?"

Wong mau mbalesi nulis ndik white board-e Mat Pithi "Aku iki klelep, Goblok!!!"

phew.. sigh..

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear

My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Hang on !!

hihihi.. baru nyadar klo blog ini warnanya mirip ama cover Jewel yang terakhir - warnanya es krim bgts yah jadi inget tadi malem bis bakar2 ikan ma sosis.. trus ngabisin es krim almost seliter - barbeque ma anak2 + ama komisaris kantor gw (since he has been livin in front of our dormitory) sambil meratapi malam mingguan yang hampa.. deuuuuu.. emang lage butuh menyibuk2kan diri sendiri these few days.. lagi ga jelas - lagi ga fokus.. kadang krasa sepi bgt - ga bisa sendiri, pgn ngobrol - tapi gw ga bisa obrolin apa yg pgn gw obrolin (menyangkut hajat hidup gw ma "dia" hehehe..) tapi kadang dilain pihak gw pengeeenn bgt sendiri - jalan malem - ato dikosan aja ngitungin bintang - sibuk nyari satu bintang yg bakal gw kasih nama sendiri - bisa juga sekedar melototin bintang yg glow in the dark di kamar gw.. matiin lampu, meyuk guling - ngelamun dah.. (awas kesambit yang "alus2" ). Perasaan gw ga lagi period deh kok moody bgts yey - cmn karna gw belom nemu jalan yg cozy aja kali buat ngejalanin apa yg gw alamin barusan.. Realizing that we've through something beautiful - like fall in love - ternyata ga selamanya enak dijalanin yg ada sekarang malah mbingungke wae isine.. hehehe.. metu asline mau biasa - tapi ngerasa yg ga biasa.. mo ga dibatesin bisa2 kebablasen.. yo wes lah - rilekss.. - take a deep breath - hang on - whoooshaaa.. (sambil nyembur2 napas kemana2.. hihihi.. yaiks.. ) udah cukup indah dengan brani ngungkapin kok lets keep it that way.. keep it that way as beautiful as it can be..

buat kamu: makasih yah makasih dah bikin hari2 gw nyenengin nowadays dan selalu gw nantiin

dinner at Pepito

kemaren dinner di cafe sebelah Pepito.. dinner? whoooo.. bukan dinner yang "itu" - bukan sama someone special.. tapi sama orang2 sekampung.. hehehe.. my unspoken thought ikut juga sih.. dinnernya siy barengan 3 project.. eeh apa 4 yah hehehe.. soalnya orang2nya itu2 aja siy.. ada adek shifa juga - anaknya pak Ekol.. (halo pak!! ) lucuu bangets.. besok dey, dishare potonya.. pipinya itu loh nggemesZzin..
malem itu makan chicken gordon bleu (my favourite order di tempat steak manapun) dan ternyata bener2 ga nyesel blass.. wuenakkk puoll.. palagi mik-nya milk shake chocolate with rhum.. trus trus.. masih sempet lagi mo nambah ice cream - Vinneta , tapi unfortunately abis.. jadi pesen puding caramel ajah.. hihihi.. ga terima klo ga jadi mesen desert .. and you know what? delicious!! jadi komplit dey malem itu bener2 puassshhh pak Cay, mau lagi dunk balik sanaaa..
oo iyee.. since i moved comment ke tempat ini (sengaja cari yg bisa private feed back ), ente2 yang pada mo kasi comment rada usil, gosszZiping , ato unspoken one monggo di-trial.. hehehe.. mangaps buat nyang lain - karna baru ganti, celoteh2annya yg dulu ilang deh tuh

..........

"..... i think i kind of fall in love with u and i think i know the reason.. i'll keep it ....."

WHY? Is it just because i look so familiar to you? Reminds you of her - your beloved one?
Did you ever know that i kind of liked it your way - how you shyly placed your eyes on me..
Did you ever know that I had mine on you, too?
I need to get out of my head for a while.. This situation just confuse me.. What's happening to you? What's happening to me? What's happening to us? Are we going on the right way, babe? Or these just because we both have our beloved ones seperated by distance and time?

Maybe u were right, nyet.. maybe-actually we need something real, and our feeling each other is not really for you/me.. but for our couple..

could it be that it had been there all along?

have you ever been fall in love with two different people at the same time? or have you ever found someone that represent everything you want in a "magical" exact ways? well.. i guess.. umm.. i think.. now.. i'm.. * needless to say *

the eye of the enemy is moving..

i've taken these pics from LOTR3-Return of The King's thriller





whuwaaa.. can't wait to see the journey ends.. with my sexy Aragorn.. huehueue.. ada yg sependapat ga ama gw? benernya emang klo diliat2 siy orlando blum okeh juga (a.k.a. Legolas) - palagi panahnya itu loh, nancep ke ati.. hihihi.. tapi gw masiy suka ma mas Ara satu ini *deuuu.. punya nama panggilan tayang *
anyway, gw dah minta tulung ma neng ini juga devil ini buat jadi mata2 gw di denpasar ( since i've been livin' in small valley near Bedugul ) kapan tu pelem bakal mitnait.. hmmm..