:: happy birthday, hun.. ::

I'm not sure you want me
to give you a poem like this
for your birthday --
a poem which says I need
to bury myself in the center of your heart
and swim there like a mermaid.

I pretend to do ordinary things like
birthday cards
but all the cells in my body are
throwing a tantrum because
you're not here with me
even when I open the dishwasher
or the blind
my body is aching because I'm not bending for you
and my skin shouts angrily to the angels
because your hands are not touching me

I am completely crazy
crazy for you
and because it's your birthday
I try to fold my love
in half to go in an envelope
like an ordinary 'love from'
but I may as well fold the sky
which for me
is held aloft
only by your kisses.

thanks a bunch, ganks..

walah.. gw ampe lupa bilang makaci ama *nis udah gw repfotin kemaren.. gw nitip CD buat anak ini nih.. superdevildemonstar.. hihihi.. kok pke star yah-kaya merk sepatu jaman baheula..
walah.. benernya juga makaci buat neng ini.. kan nis ngasiin ke devil lewat dia.. hohoho.. binun yey.. muter2 ga karuan.. abiiisss.. sapa suruh elo ga jadi2 ketemuan ma gw.. mentang2 klo nonton maunya ama neng itu doang.. hihihi..

:: 5 days to go.. and still counting.. ::

Love is real, real is love
Love is feeling, feeling love
Love is wanting to be loved

Love is touch, touch is love
Love is reaching, reaching love
Love is asking to be loved

Love is you
You and me
Love is knowing
We can be

Love is free, free is love
Love is living, living love
Love is needing to be loved

sepi niihh..

di kantor.. ada project yang harus bedhol desa.. ngebawa smua dev-nya, SA-nya, ampe QA-nya ke client di Jakarta .. walahh ni kantor sepiii bangets.. lom lagi yang pada cuti Natalan..
benernya sih, sedihnya karna mas2 yang biasanya gw gangguin termasuk batch2 yang brekete.. banyak temen maen, temen curhat, temen brainstorming, ma sparring partner sansak klo gw lagi kesel ato iseng pengen nyubitin mpe biru2 ..
mereka dijadwalin ada disono mpe 4 bulan.. whololoooo.. itu perkiraan optimisnya.. biasanya ada faktor pengalinya tuh. bisa kaliin 4!! walaahh klo itu yg bakal kejadian mah brarti mereka bisa ampe setaunan disana and maybe waktu mereka balik kesini, gw dah ga disini lagi
wadoouuwww.. sedih.. kemaren pas mereka brekete, krasa bgt kehilangannya.. c u then, guys.. rajin2 YM-an yey.. (walaupun inetnya di-client lelet bangetz ) udah kangeeeennnn niiieeyyy..

pengen ngobrol lagi.. pengen brantem lagi.. pengen debat lagi..

:: counting down.. 10 days to go ::

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice


You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away..

lemme be ur secret garden, hun.. nanen..

aku maaaauu iniiiii !!!

Hi, guys.. Live report from Surabaya. A week ago, I found out a new cozy place to eat there. Sampoerna would be the well-known name for one of leading cigarette brand in Indonesia. Sampoerna makes one of their factories located in back of Surabaya's prison (Kalisosok), into a new sight seeing places, and one of the sections - there is Cafe Sampoerna.
I guess that's all about the location, and then moved to the food in that cafe - like this blog mission from the starts he he.. of course talked about food.
For the 1st time, I thought the food was ordinary food found in other cafe like this, just like spaghetti bolognaise, chicken cordon bleu, steaks, and so on.. but that's for the main course, for the 'sweet sins' - there's a es puter Surabaya, classic tiramisu, black and white creme brulee - for the extraordinary ones, you'd better checked out for the 'start-ups' menu 1st. For the start-ups menu, there's calamari fritti, chicken quesadilla - for the soup, there's a tuscan tomato soup, tom yum gung - then for the greens there's a salade nicoise, rice paper rolls.. he he.. weirdo names, aren't they?
Okay, I start my resume by the food I ate that night, which are: Tod Mun Pla (for the start-ups only, without the main course because I've full already), Chicken Corn Soup, and ordinary Iced Cappuccino.
Tod Mun Pla is made from Thai fish cake, served with sweet chilli sauce and crushed peanuts. Whoaa.. the taste is really 'Mars' for me - hihi.. just in other way of saying that it's really have strange taste I ever ate from the food made from fish It has strong taste - and for the 1st bite, I thought it was a 'dadar jagung-salah bikin'.. huehuehueu.. The sauce itself - that mentioned above as a chilli sauce and crushed peanuts also couldn't make the 'Mars' taste from the fish even better. Dinda, my cousin, in other way just like the taste and she just 'help' me to complete the ate mission when she looked my pale face when I ate that 'Mars' food.. he he.. thanks God-thanks to Dinda
Chicken corn soup helps me to forget the 'Mars' and landed my feet on the 'Earth'.. hehe.. the taste was very 'Chinese-food' but that's all fine for me. Nothing special for this soup, too..
Next time I have to try the main course menu, because I just found out the 'traumatic' side of food-tour here with the start-ups menu..
I always like Chicken Cordon bleu and next stop here I have to try it, then I can make a full comparison for all the food from start-ups, soup, greens, and mains.
My sister have strawberry smoothies and I guessed that was the best served at that night.. hehehe.. I like the taste very much The price taken also ordinary price like the other cafe, for the start-ups: 5.000-20.000 rupiahs, and for the main: 20.000-60.000 rupiahs.
For the atmosphere, I think this cafe is very affordable place to go for cozy and romantic ones, I really suggest it - this just become my favorite place to hang up later on, but I regret the food served. This cafe have live music every Friday and Saturday, too..
That's all folks.. later if I found exotic food here in this cafe, I will tell you, so you can find here not just for the atmosphere, but also the food itself. Tha-thaa..

You'll never know how much..

You'll never know
how much
your smile lights up the room
or your laughter fills my soul,
making all the little problems of the day disappear.


You'll never know
how much it means to me
when you do or say something
thoughtful and totally unexpected -
usually just at the moment I need it most.


You'll never know
how much pride I hold in my heart
for the person you are and the things you do -
for your strength and your gentleness,
your courage and your determination,your accomplishments and your dreams.


You'll never know
how much I need you by my side -
in the best of times and the worst of times
and all the times in between.
It really doesn't matter where we are
or what we're doing,
as long as we're together to share it all.
I love you with all my heart and soul.


You'll never know how much.